Lost Days Loki 23

The fixer, that is how they treat him. That is how mankind treats him. The unwanted fixer. The one who takes the blame. The one who takes the fall. The one who saves the face of the others. Loki is blamed for the ills of the gods by mankind. Is he really at fault? No. He is the fixer. He is the one who breaks things to fix them. He is the one who puts himself out to fix the problems of others. He carries the blame. He carries the shame. He is the scapegoat.

He does all these things. What thanks does he get. None. His children get taken from him or murdered. Another song it does not describe him but it features David Bowie who reminds me in this character of Uncle. Now dance magic dance!

Lost days Loki Day 20

This is one of fie lost days. I will be working on these. Using music and thoughts to fill in how I feel about Loki.

Another song. Going Under by Evanescence. This sounds like Loki talking to the other gods.
“Going Under”

Now I will tell you what I’ve done for you –
50 thousand tears I’ve cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you –
And you still won’t hear me.
(going under)
Don’t want your hand this time – I’ll save myself.
Maybe I’ll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I’d reached the bottom

I’m dying again

I’m going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I’m falling forever (falling forever)
I’ve got to break through
I’m going under

Blurring and stirring – the truth and the lies.
(So I don’t know what’s real) So I don’t know what’s real and what’s not (and what’s not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can’t trust myself anymore

I’m dying again

I’m going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I’m falling forever (falling forever)
I’ve got to break through

I’m…

So go on and scream
Scream at me I’m so far away (so far away)
I won’t be broken again (again)
I’ve got to breathe – I can’t keep going under

I’m dying again

I’m going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I’m falling forever (falling forever)
I’ve got to break through

I’m going under (going under)
I’m going under (drowning in you)
I’m going under

Loki 29

Loki Day 29. I have been really bad about this the past week it  seems. I have honestly missed days. X_X Well I am here again. I Have a song that makes me think of how he feels. It is Nickleback, I have so fallen out of love with this group, Saving Me just makes me think of Loki.

Why does this song speak so strongly. It talks about am I worth saving? The answer is yes we all are. Each and every one of us is worth saving including Loki. Life is worth the pain. Life without pain without growth is not worth living. We learn by living. No all of us have a fixer. There is a thought of the thought I need to make up.

I am going to go though and figure out how many days i am missing and than I am going to make up for those days.

Here are the words of the song.

“Savin’ Me” by Nickleback

Prison gates won’t open up for me
On these hands and knees I’m crawlin’
Oh, I reach for you
Well I’m terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can’t hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I’m callin’
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’

[Chorus:]
Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me

Heaven’s gates won’t open up for me
With these broken wings I’m fallin’
And all I see is you
These city walls ain’t got no love for me
I’m on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I’m callin’
And all I need from you
Hurry I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’

[Chorus]

Hurry I’m fallin’

All I need is you
Come please I’m callin’
And oh, I scream for you
Hurry I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’

[Chorus]

Hurry I’m fallin’

Loki 18

Today I think I will focus on Hel. She is one that people don’t seem to pay attention to. She plays and important role. She is a death goddess that takes care of the Norse Underworld- Helheim. This is her home. She gets all those that do not die in battle. She gets the ones that die of old age. The one’s that die from being sick. The ones that die from accidents. Anyone who did not die in battle goes to Hel’s realm.

Death Maiden

Deep in the metaphysical earth
You sit on your thorne
Over looking all that come to you
The dead, the honored dead
They come to your table
They stay in your realm
Until such a time that they are reborn
You know their stories
You sing their songs
History is something you remember
The history of each and every soul that has crossed your path
You know them better than they know themselves
You are their judge
Their jury
You read their verdict
You decide if they are worthy of rest
Or if they still have a lesson they need to learn before
They are reborn on the earth
You are as much a prisoner
As both your bothers
Though your prison is much larger than theirs
Death is who you are
Death is what you rule over
You can appear as a beautiful maiden
You can appear as a scary unearthly maiden
You are whom you are
You are Death